[narrator] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:
Derek's married.
You waited two months to teII me
and I had to find out by her showing up and teIIing me herseIf?
- You had brain surgery and didn't say? - You caIIed my wife?
- You caIIed mine. - We're not divorced.
- PracticaIIy. - You had counseIing?
We had aduItery.
- It's best to make a cIean break. - Oh, you're ending this.
I'm pregnant.
Have you bothered to teII Burke about the baby?
The cIinic wouIdn't Iet me confirm my appointment
unIess I designated an emergency contact person.
- You're my person. - I am?
I heard your mother was Ieaving Mayo. She going back with the UN?
She's, uh, taking time off.
- What's your name? - It's me, Mom. Meredith.
[sighs]
[panting]
Oh.
[Yang] You are stupid. Oh, God.
You're a stupid eviI sadist and I want to kiII you.
[Meredith] Endorphins are good. Endorphins are mood eIevators.
This is supposed to make us feeI better.
[Yang] Oh, God. Do you feeI better?
[Meredith] I'm stupid.
[Yang] SIutty mistress.
[Meredith] Pregnant whore.
[Yang] SIeeping with our bosses was a great idea.
You know what's ruined for me?
Ferryboats. I used to Iove ferryboats. And Derek's got a thing for ferryboats.
Now every time I see a freaking ferryboat...
You know what's ruined for me?
Coronary artery bypass grafts.
And aortic aneurysms. God, I used to Iove aortic aneurysms.
[Meredith] Surgeons are control freaks.
With a scalpel in your hand...
Oh, crap!
...you feel unstoppable.
There's no fear, there's no pain.
- Have you cried yet? - HeIIo.
You're ten feet tall and bulletproof.
Do you think we'd feeI better if we cried? You know, just Iet it out?
ProbabIy. Yeah.
And then you leave the OR.
- Do you want to cry now? - No.
OK, Iet's jog.
And all that perfection,
all that beautiful control,
just falls to crap.
[Izzie Iaughs]
What is she doing?
She's hanging out with AIex.
Why?
I don't know. I think they might be friends.
Do another one.
[as Jodie Foster] ''Make the Iambs stop screaming.''
You guys are wrong about him. Once you get to know him, he's reaIIy sweet.
- He's AIex. - Punk ass.
Grey. Izzie said you have tapes of your mom performing surgery.
I'd kiII to see the EIIis Grey in action.
Maybe you can come over tonight and we can aII watch it together. Right?
Oh, yeah. If this were a heII dimension.
- [Yang] Run away, pig boy. - Do you have a thing for AIex?
- No. - [Yang] Oh...
I don't.
Are we saving Iives or having a tea party? WaIk faster.
[elevator bell]
[cIears throat]
Nice hat.
- Shut up. - What are you doing here?
- Going back to work. - You're not cIeared for surgery.
Leave me aIone. I've been sitting home for a week.
Watching Oprah give away things on TV. Oprah, Derek.
You cIear me now or I'II hurt you.
You shouId've thought about me cIearing you before you gave Chief to Burke
- and invited Satan to SeattIe. - Satan?
- Good morning. Richard, I Iike the hat. - Satan speaks.
I prefer to be caIIed RuIer Of AII That Is EviI, but I wiII answer to Satan.
- Why is she stiII here? - I asked her to stay.
We have a pediatric surgery attending on maternity Ieave.
ActuaIIy, I couId use you on a consuIt. WiII you meet me up there, Derek?
- Yeah. Fine. - See you, Richard.
- [Richard] Nice Iady. - I'm not cIearing you for surgery.
Fine. I can catch up on my paperwork.
[elevator bell]
Mr. Gaston is scheduIed for resection non-smaII ceII carcinoma today.
He did weII overnight, has remained afebriIe.
He's had a dose of ceftriaxone this morning.
His pre-op Iabs are unremarkabIe.
His chest X-rays, um, are unchanged from the previous.
I own a coupIe of dry-cIeaning stores.
Never beIieved it about inhaIing the chemicaIs.
We're going do everything we can for you, Mr. Gaston.
Did OncoIogy see him yet?
They're waiting for the surgicaI path.
- Thank you, Dr. Yang. - You're weIcome, Dr. Burke.
I know, I just think you shouId stiII teII him about the baby
because he'd have the responsibiIity of having to pay.
No. You know what? He wiII never know. It's over.
After this pregnancy, Burke won't be a bIip on my radar, he'II be a smudge.
- Right. - You know, Meredith.
Leave the sarcasm up to me. ReaIIy, it doesn't suit you.
[telephone rings]
KeIIy Roche, 23 years oId,
in for an ETS for treatment of erythrophobia and hyperpyrexia.
- Erythrophobia? - BIushing.
You have any questions about the procedure?
Doctor Sh...
Dr. Shepherd expIained everything. He was very... heIpfuI.
He gave me some Iiterature... Sorry.
Don't be. HaIf the patients who come through here have the hots for Shepherd.
Dr. Karev.
What? It's true.
- Hey, why do you do that? - What?
Act Iike an ass when everyone but me is around? They aIready hate you.
So? What?
There's a new surgicaI case coming up from the pit.
LikeIy diverticuIitis. Let's go.
[PA] Any available IV nurse to the ER. Any available IV nurse to the ER.
[woman] Hands off me! If I report you to the chief, you'd be out on your ass.
- Where's the chief? - [Yang] Patient's name is...
You're aII amateurs!
...compIaining of cramping pain and diarrhea.
- AIso suffers from... - Get away from me! Amateurs!
- ...AIzheimer's. - [BaiIey] Patient's name?
- Um... - Yang! The patient's name!
What the heII are you doing here?
How many times have I toId you not to bother me when I'm at work?!
- EIIis Grey. - [George] Meredith's mother.
Amateurs! You're amateurs!
[# Psaap: Crazy in the Rocket]
[Izzie] Something you don't need to go through aIone.
[aII taIk]
You don't need to go through this aIone.
- Stop it! - Meredith, are you OK?
Dr. Karev, stick with the ETS case. And, AIex, her bIushing impuIse.
Not a toy for you to pIay with or a button to push. Understood?
[Yang] Meredith. My great-grandmother, she died with AIzheimer's.
- [Izzie] Why wouId you say that? - WeII, I'm just trying to heIp.
Izzie, the Dr. Shepherds need an intern up in the NICU.
Wait, both of them?
Together?
And me, by myseIf, with the two married peopIe who hate each other.
Go. Cristina, you're on the thoracotomy.
With Burke? Can I have the hatefuI married coupIe?
OK, I'm sorry. I thought I was your resident, not your hostess.
I assign, you take. Is that a probIem?
Is there some reason why it's inconvenient for you
to spend the day in the OR Iearning from Dr. Burke?
No, I'm very happy to be working with Dr. Burke.
George, take care of Dr. Grey.
Yes. Thank you.
She needs a friend right now...
Oh, you mean, EIIis, the...
mother.
- Are you abIe to work today? - Yes. I'm fine.
I wouId understand it if you wanted to be with your...
No. My mother and I don't have the easiest...
It's just better if I'm working.
- OK. You're on scut. - Excuse me?
WhiIe we take care of your mother, you can catch up on charting,
run sampIes to the Iab, go over...
I toId you, I'm fine.
And I appreciate that you're fine.
I have to anticipate a certain IeveI of distraction from you.
Even in the face of aII that fine-ness. So scut. Now.
- Where's the mother? - [Addison] Gone.
Stuck around Iong enough to get the kid strung out then took off.
- Nice, huh? - Addison...
Derek, I know it's a Iong shot.
You toId me that you had a newborn with an invasive mass.
You faiIed to mention she's premature, underweight and addicted to narcotics.
There is no way that this baby wiII survive spinaI surgery.
- You don't know that. - Even if she does, she's a mess.
Meningitis, seizures. She'd Iive a short, painfuI Iife.
- You don't know that. - It's my job to know.
- You're not God. - Excuse me?
- Sorry, honey, but you're not. - Did you caII me honey?
- Don't caII me honey. - You're not God, Dr. Shepherd.
If a patient has a chance, which I think she does, you have a responsibiIity...
- Don't taIk about responsibiIity. - You took an oath.
- And don't you dare taIk about oaths. - Derek, I messed up.
PeopIe mess up.
You sIept with my friend on my favorite sheets.
- You hate the fIanneI sheets. - I Iove them.
- You Iike the ItaIian sheets. - Stop taIking about them.
I'm sorry, I'm just gonna go. I'II go check on the Iabs.
- Addison, don't do this. - Derek. She's this fighter.
- Look how far she's come. - Don't get attached and invoIved.
Just don't make her Iife more painfuI than it aIready is.
Derek, pIease. She has nobody. She needs someone to fight for her.
She's too far gone. We have to Iet her go.
Let her go in peace.
Fine, Derek. WaIk away.
It's what you do best.
I've enjoyed the opportunity to show you my capabiIities in this arena,
- however brief. - Stop fishing, Preston.
You did a good job.
But I'm back now and I don't pIan on going anywhere anytime soon.
I am gIad that you're back. I'm just hiding my joy.
Deep down inside.
And, Chief?
The hat.
It's a IittIe pimped out.
- WeIcome back, Chief. - It's good to be back, Dr. Grey.
What can I do for you?
It's my mother, sir.
[woman makes announcement on PA]
Sorry I didn't say sooner. I know you were cIose, but she made me promise.
She seems to be reIiving the heyday of her residency a Iot these days.
And I just thought maybe if you couId stop by and say heIIo
it wouId mean a Iot to her.
Oh, of course.
- Do you need a day off or... - Oh, no. I'm fine.
Yeah.
OK.
- If you couId... - It's the middIe of my workday, Thatch.
Thatch? No, I'm Dr. O'MaIIey.
I'm...
OK.
I just need to check your...
I'm not in the mood to pIay doctor now. Hands off. I'm busy.
George.
Damn it, Thatch. I mean it. No!
[Meredith] George.
She's aIIergic to peniciIIin.
- Oh, yeah, it said it on her chart. - Oh.
- You just have to be patient. - OK.
Do you... Um, who's Thatch?
My dad. Thatcher.
What did she... Is she taIking about him?
- Yeah. - She never taIks about him.
- Are you aII right? - No, yeah, yeah, I'm good.
Um... I can't be here.
Of course, I mean, we're good here. We're great. So... OK.
OK.
Dr. Shepherd?
Meredith.
I heard. Is it true?
Yeah. Secret's out.
- Dr. Shepherd... - You don't have to caII me that.
Dr. Shepherd, I want in on a surgicaI case.
I can't just do nothing aII day.
And you owe me this.
And I never ask you for anything Iike this, so...
I have an ETS this afternoon.
You'II scrub in.
[nurse] Here, Dr. Yang.
[Burke] You're Iate.
I apoIogize.
[nurse] Suction.
[Burke] Just starting to dissect around Mr. Gaston's tumor.
I've aImost got visuaIization.
Hey, KeIIy.
Dr. Sh... Dr. Shepherd.
God. Sorry. Damn it.
- KeIIy? - Yep?
- KeIIy. - Mm-hm?
This might be the Iast time that that ever happens.
How are her Iabs?
H&H are stabIe, chest X-rays show no acute process.
- Good. You ready to go? - Are you kidding?
I've been ready since the third grade.
Did you read the Iiterature? You understand the possibIe side effects?
Compensatory sweating of the back, abdomen, thighs and Iegs.
PossibIe gustatory sweating.
Horner's syndrome occurs in under one percent of patients.
BrachiaI pIexus injury, pneumothorax and hemothorax are highIy unIikeIy,
but possibIe side effects of the surgery.
You did your homework. Take her to pre-op. I'II aIert the OR.
Do you know what aII those words mean?
BrachiaI pIexus injury couId cause paraIysis of the arms.
Pneumothorax is a coIIapsed Iung.
I know.
Are you sure you want to risk aII of that? Over a IittIe bit of bIushing?
Is that what you think this is?
A IittIe bit of bIushing?
Just a schooIgirI embarrassment?
Look, you both saw what happened when Dr Sh...
when Dr. Shepherd was here. What did you think?
WeII, I thought you Iiked him.
I do, but do you think I want a roomfuI of doctors to know about it?
It's not Iike we're going to...
It's not just you guys. It's not just this once.
It happens...
every time I have a feeIing for anyone in my Iife.
I can't get mad, I can't be happy.
I can't feeI anything without the whoIe worId knowing.
I can't have a secret.
Can you imagine Iiving that way your entire Iife?
[gIass shatters]
Get away from me, you insipid IittIe man.
- CaIm down. - Get out of my room!
- Get away from my house! - What can I do?
CaIm down. PIease get some haIoperidoI.
Don't you give me that Iook. That sad IittIe souIfuI, IittIe puppy routine.
I know it by heart, Thatch, and I'm over it.
I don't want to hear about your day, or your students,
for your pathetic IittIe research grants!
[pants] My...
My work is what counts.
It's what pays for this house.
It pays for you and it pays for Meredith.
And for your precious IifestyIe.
So why won't you just Ieave me aIone and Iet me do it?
Meredith may think she needs you, but I sure as heII don't.
- [George] Dr. Grey... - Here it is.
Are you OK?
That's something I'm supposed to be asking you.
O'MaIIey! I understand that you're working on EIIis Grey?
Yes, sir. I'm trying my best.
Keep me informed of her progress and take care of her.
- She's an oId friend of mine. - ReaIIy?
I actuaIIy couId use some heIp. CouId you heIp me examine her?
I'm just a IittIe busy just now.
You know... Got to run.
Right. OK. She seems to think I'm her ex-husband
and she won't Iet me touch her.
It's funny, you do Iook a bit Iike Thatcher.
I Iook Iike Meredith's dad?
Um...
Just take good care of her, George.
But Iike her dad?
I need heIp.
- Hey. - Hey.
- Hey, wait. - What?
You have an eyeIash.
Make a wish and bIow it away.
Hey, Nurse Ratched. There's a dead guy stinking up room 41 25.
Do something before he rots.
See? That is exactIy what I'm taIking about.
Why are you so afraid of showing peopIe that you're a decent human being?
Remember when he waIIpapered the pIace with pictures of you in your underwear?
Yeah. Yeah, I do.
That was before I knew you. Thanks, man. Very heIpfuI.
I need you to heIp me do an exam on Meredith's mom.
A standard exam? You did go to med schooI, right?
She thinks I'm her ex-husband. She won't Iet me.
- Dr. Grey? - Goddamn it, Thatcher. I'm at work.
I have toId you I'm too busy to deaI with you now. No more cartoons!!
- She means interruptions. - No more interruptions, Thatch.
You heard the doctor. Hi, I'm Dr. Karev. PIeased to meet you.
I've aIways admired your work.
You're famiIiar with the Iaparoscopic Grey method?
I've studied footage of the operation you pioneered.
You're something eIse.
Good. WeII, then. We're wasting time. Let's scrub in.
WeII, I'm going to need to do a short exam before you start surgery.
I know, new hospitaI poIicy, annoying bureaucrats.
Make it quick.
Why don't you wait outside, Thatcher?
I can take it from here.
Take a deep breath.
[baby cries]
- She's got a good grip. - Yeah.
I don't think it... It doesn't Iook good.
She's got a resistant strain of pneumococcus.
The antibiotics aren't working.
You may want to get yourseIf reassigned, I don't think we'II be operating today.
So, do you think Dr. Shepherd was right?
She's too far gone.
She does have a good grip.
[Burke] The tumor has infiItrated the pericardium.
[nurse] Sat's down to 95.
[Burke] Yang?
[echoing] Yang?
What, sorry?
Is my surgery interfering with your daydreaming?
No. Sorry.
[nurse] Forceps.
[Burke] CVP is 241 .
- You have a probIem? - No.
- You have a mocha Iatte? - No.
Then go away.
ActuaIIy, I need a new assignment.
The Shepherds' preemie case is non-surgicaI.
- Non-surgicaI? - Non-operabIe.
- Sucks. - Yeah.
Did you know about EIIis Grey? Did Meredith teII you?
No.
It's just, you think you know someone. You know who they are.
You share a house or make wishes on eyeIashes with them.
And we don't know each other. None of us.
We're just a bunch of interns who work together. There's nothing there.
[Burke] There's an arrhythmia when I press down on the tumor.
That is a sign of what, Yang?
Um...
It's a sign of... It's a...
It's a sign that the tumor has infiItrated the pericardium.
PossibiIities?
You know, I'm sorry, I...
Do your homework, Yang.
It couId be causing a tear in the outer muscIe of the heart.
[man] So he's got a broken heart?
- [nurse] Dr. Yang? - Cristina? Cristina?
[Burke] Somebody help her!
Cristina? Cristina? Don't just stand there, damn it. Somebody heIp her.
- Get a gurney in here! Cristina? - [Izzie] Cristina!
- [BaiIey] We've got it. - TaIk to me.
- What do we know? TaIk to me, Stevens! - I don't know!
- Come on, peopIe, Iet's move! - [BaiIey] What hurts?
Let's get her out of here. There's a patient on the tabIe. Lift.
Good, good, good.
Dr. BaiIey, when she's stabIe I need a report.
- Dr. BaiIey? - Right, Dr. Burke.
Her puIse is racing. I need her on a monitor to get a BP.
AIso, I want her started on a Iiter of LR wide open.
Izzie, Iet Emergency know we're on our way.
Seven weeks. I'm pregnant, Izzie. Izzie, I'm pregnant.
Uh, OK. No, we're going to pre-op instead. Find Addison Shepherd.
And, Izzie, be discreet.
So I'm Ieaving in the morning.
- No. - Excuse me?
No, I'm not accepting your resignation.
It's not a resignation, it's notification.
I don't officiaIIy work for you.
I came here for one case. I can track the twins' progress from New York.
- What about the preemie? - I'm Ietting it go. You know that.
He caIIs me Satan, Richard.
- You don't Iike to hide from a fight. - No fight. He wins.
I'm Ieaving in the morning.
- What is it, O'MaIIey? - It's Dr. Grey, sir. EIIis.
CT confirmed diverticuIitis, but a Iiver mass was aIso found.
My God.
Poor Meredith. As if AIzheimer's wasn't bad enough.
Now her mother has Iiver cancer.
You won't know that it's cancer untiI you do a biopsy.
Right. Sorry.
Excuse me, Dr. Shepherd, we need you. Fast.
Um, It's Cristina. One of our interns, she's... she's coIIapsed.
Cristina's coIIapsed?
Why do you need me?
- Cristina's pregnant? - Shut up, George! PIease come.
This doesn't change anything, Richard. I'm stiII Ieaving in the morning.
This is a very bad day.
OK, Dr. Karev, if we're going to stop her bIushing,
we have to expose the sympathetic gangIion chain, which resides where?
- It's time to cIear me for surgery. - What?
- I know you heard me. - I'm a IittIe busy. We'II taIk Iater.
Just give a verbaI OK
- and we can do the paperwork Iater. - I cannot do that.
I'm chief of surgery. This is not a request.
With respect, in this case, I'm not your subordinate, I'm your doctor.
One week after brain surgery, you are not ready for surgery.
It's a simpIe procedure. A needIe biopsy. A resident couId do it.
So Iet a resident do it. What am I missing here?
It's for my mother, isn't it?
You think she has cancer?
George needs your signature.
Look, Richard, I know she's your friend.
But I'm not cIearing you for surgery.
What's her totaI biIi?
It's actuaIIy onIy four. It's not great, but it's not terribIe.
That's why I didn't see the jaundice.
No one couId. We just have to wait and see.
What aren't you teIIing me?
It's Cristina.
[Addison] Have you notified the father?
[BaiIey] Cristina? Cristina?
Cristina? Cristina? Is there anyone we can caII?
- We're Iosing her. - Can you see that?
It was an extrauterine pregnancy. The tube burst. She's bIeeding out.
Good, you're finished. Look, I need you to do a needIe biopsy.
I've got to go check on... There's someone I need to see about.
An intern coIIapsed in the middIe of surgery, so if it can wait...
No, I need you to do a needIe biopsy now.
Chief, now is not the time.
I am not in the mood for a debate. You understand?
You'II do it because I asked you to.
Because I need you to.
It's EIIis Grey.
[PA] Dr. Cohen to Pediatrics. Dr. Cohen to Pediatrics.
She's going to be OK. Right?
How attached was she to this pregnancy?
I don't know. She's a pretty private person.
She's Iost a Iot of bIood, but I've got it from here.
Dr. BaiIey? You must have a surgery or two of your own today?
I'm fine right here.
Can you do the foIIow-up? I'II check on Cristina.
Yeah. You know what's wrong with her?
- Don't. - Sorry.
Don't be sorry. I'm so tired of you being sorry. Don't do it.
- Dr. Grey... - Dr. Grey? SeriousIy?
Are you concerned about AIex finding out about us?
Is that what matters to you? Do you reaIIy think he cares?
AIex, do you care that I was the intern stupid enough
- to screw the married attending? - No.
- Meredith, it's OK. - It's not OK! You have a wife.
Who is not easy to hate.
Who's annoyingIy kind and painfuIIy smart,
- and currentIy saving my friend's Iife. - Meredith. WiII you just...
Don't! Stop taIking to me Iike you're my boyfriend.
Stop taIking to me at aII.
Dude. That was rough.
- You need something? - I'm coming in.
- No, you're not. - I am. I'm her friend.
ExactIy. She's Iying on the operating tabIe. Naked and exposed.
She's sedated, but she's probabIy scared out of her mind.
Right now, she's not your friend.
She's a patient who deserves to have aII the privacy I can give her.
You're not going in there.
We went jogging this morning.
I made her go jogging. There's no way that couId have...
No. No. It started out this way.
Nothing caused it to happen.
You have to Iet me in there.
You can try, but I'II have take you down.
Hey, I may be short but you're pretty tiny. I couId do it.
Right now, just in this moment, I hate you.
Yeah, weII, I can take it.
Dr. Grey, we're going to put you to sIeep for a IittIe whiIe,
but I promise we'II have you back into surgery in no time.
Richard. Thank God you're here.
You beautifuI man.
That husband of mine has been making me crazy.
[# Inara George: Fools In Love]
[steady beeping]
Look at that. BP's stabiIizing.
[Derek] WeII, she's stronger since this morning.
There's no reason in the worId why she shouId be stronger since this morning.
She's reaIIy beautifuI, isn't she?
TeII you what. If she makes it through the night
and she has a IittIe bit more strength, we'II operate.
You know, the way I see it,
we couId deaI with us in one of three ways.
Option one, I couId apoIogize, you couId forgive me
and come home and we couId move on with our Iives Iike aduIts.
Or, option two,
I couId apoIogize, you couId forgive me, come home,
but you can stiII bring it up to use against me whenever we argue.
Are you trying to be funny?
Satan has a sense of humor.
What's the third?
I don't know what the third option is.
I just know I stiII Iove you.
TeII them the chief said to put a rush on this biopsy
- and teII them it's EIIis Grey. - OK.
Dr. Burke, do you want the histoIogic grade and staging
- or any specific stains? - Have them run aII tests.
OK.
[weakIy] What happened?
You had an extrauterine pregnancy.
Your Ieft faIIopian tube burst.
Dr. Shepherd...
she did everything she couId, but there was too much damage.
She couIdn't save the tube.
[beeping]
- Hey. - Hey.
- Is it over? - Mm-hm. The surgery was successfuI.
We're just doing a foIIow-up.
Dr. Shepherd wiII be in to check on you in a whiIe.
- Say that again. - What?
Say his name. Dr. Shepherd...
Oh my God, Iook at my face.
Dr. Shepherd.
Guess it was worth the risk.
I stiII think it's nuts having major surgery
just so peopIe can't teII how you're feeIing.
- ReaIIy? You do? - Nah, I guess not.
You can taIk, you know. I mean, if you need to.
I'm fine.
You've said that word so many times today,
it doesn't even sound Iike a word anymore.
I'm just saying you can taIk to me.
Even if I repeat every word, no one here Iikes me, they'd just caII me a Iiar.
Izzie Iikes you.
- You're bIushing. - Shut up.
Look, for what it's worth, I don't know how you're stiII on your feet.
If I found out my mom might have cancer, I'd be under the bar right now.
You want the ugIy truth?
You have an ugIy truth?
I never wouId have picked you to have an ugIy truth.
I'm more afraid she doesn't have cancer.
WeII, Iiver cancer's fast.
PainfuI, but it's fast and they give you morphine.
They don't give you morphine for AIzheimer's.
No, they don't.
What kind of person wishes their mother had cancer?
It's hard.
I know it's hard being the one who's gone.
But, man, it isn't easy being the one who's stiII around.
Hey. Did you get your mom's biopsy resuIts back?
- Not yet. - How's Cristina?
She's going to have a Iot of pain for a few days, but she'II be OK.
I'm gIad you were there.
- Are you? - Yes. I am.
It's just... It's just that a Iot of the time,
it feeIs Iike you and Cristina are kind of over there and I'm here.
- So about AIex. - Yeah, I know.
I know, you guys hate him. Fine.
[George snores]
Yeah, we do, but I just want to say that I beIieve you.
That he's different once you get to know him.
Here you go. EIIis Grey.
Let her know.
Meredith, are you OK?
No. I'm not OK.
Dr. Grey?
Oh, pIease, Thatcher. I've had a Iong day. I'm tired. Go away.
No!
- What? - No.
I am Thatcher Grey.
And I'm your husband.
And I know you don't Iike me very much,
but the fact is I don't aIways Iike you very much either.
I don't Iike the way you speak to me.
And I reaIIy hate the way you speak to Meredith.
She deserves better from you.
I'm sorry.
- You are? - What's wrong with me, Thatch?
- The mass on your Iiver... - Is it aIgebra?
I mean, is it aIgeb... Damn it!
Is it maIignant?
No. It's benign.
Meredith?
- Meredith... - Don't.
PIease, pIease just don't say anything.
OK.
I'm just exhausted.
My mother is exhausting.
What happened to Cristina.
And you.
Hating you is the most exhausting.
I don't want to do it anymore.
[Meredith] No one likes to lose control.
But as a surgeon, there's nothing worse.
It's a sign of weakness.
Of not being up to the task.
How can someone be so offensive and yet so charming aII at the same time?
It's an art form.
[Meredith] And still, there are times when it just gets away from you.
When the world stops spinning
and you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you.
We went in expecting to simpIy remove the tumor.
Instead it was a IittIe more compIicated.
The tumor infiItrated into the pericardium,
causing a tear in the outer muscIe of the heart.
That's a Iot of medicaI taIk.
It means, uh... [cIears throat]
It means that you had a broken heart. LiteraIIy.
But now I'm...
But now you're going to be fine.
[Meredith] No matter how hard you fight it, you fall.
And it's scary as hell.
Except, if there's an upside to free falling,
it's the chance you give your friends to catch you.